God Gives and he takes away

Today is about children, we don't have any yet and I know that God will take away the broken heart that I suffer and will give us children.

There are children all around the world and there are blogs all around the world that I read, today I want to tell you about one family because they need our prayer.

Stellan who is a year old today! Happy 1st Birthday Sweet baby boy! Stellan is in need of prayer The Article is from Stellan's moms blog

In the womb, he was diagnosed with heart failure, suffering from Supraventricular Tachycardia, hydrops and heart block. At 24 weeks the doctors told the us that our gravely ill unborn baby would surely die. We chose to give our son completely to God who surprised us with Stellan's miraculous recovery: our son was born healthy! MckMuffin began to suffer from SVT again at 4 months, was additionally diagnosed with PFO, a hole in his heart, and had a partially successful heart procedure performed at 5 months. Whether the future holds more surgeries or a pacemaker for our miracle boy, we don't know. But God does and we trust Him no matter what He decides.

So please Pray for Stellan he is in very rough shape, the worst he has ever been in SVT and he needs our prayers today that God will take away and give him a new heart, and heal the kidneys that aren't working right now.

So please pray for Stellan, updates can be found at http://www.mycharmingkids.net/ or his moms twitter http://twitter.com/MckMama

WOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOO

WE ARE DONE!!!

Woooooooooooohoooooooooooooo We are done the home study and man was it long! Now we wait for our social worker to write it up and I am giving her 2 weeks and then I will be an annoying rat who won't leave her alone.

So we kinda asked her about looking into other provinces for a sibling group and she said she would help us if we knew of any kids. So please pray!

Now is the time to pray for God's will and that God will show us the children he wants us to parents. I have my heart set on a sib group but I need to see what God wants.

Keep those prayers coming we need them!

Denise

We are home!

We had an good vacation we are both exhausted as it was go go go go! But thats alright, we got to see many family members and lots of friends.

Please pray for us as we know of some kids in care somewhere and are very interested in them but need to see if they go on the national list so we could apply for them.

So please pray for us and this journey we may take, but pray for these children and that if Evan and I aren't there parents that they find a home that will love them and care for them.

God has really showed himself to me lately and showed me that I am strong and that he has taken away the pain I have felt about not having a baby of my own and has made my heart pure to the adoption. I have a friend who found out she is pregnant I am super excited for her but she was scared to tell me and I know she has been trying for awhile and was going to visit the fertility dr. God is amazing and I wish her the best 9 months of pregnancy ever! I am at peace now with people getting pregnant, not very at peace yet with those who complain all the time they are sick and that they want to be pregnant and all they do is complain but maybe thats something I need to pray for.

God please show us the path that you have set for us, if its the children then please show us this and allow the journey to go smoothly. Thank you Jesus for who you are! Praise you Lord, be with these children and wrap your loving arms around them.

Thanks for thinking of us

Denise

Slacking

Oh my have we been slacking or what!

We had a class last week on the phone and hopefully will be able to attend the next one, we fly to Ontario that day and get in around 6pm and the call is at 10pm so we shall see. I really want to as its on FASD and even though I know lots about it, I can always learn more and more! We watched the FAS movie it was good.

We also have a movie to watch called Open Adoption so I am looking forward to that also, its tough to think that our children can have openness with their bio family but to me that is important also.

We met with the social worker the other day, we both had to meet with her separate and she talked to us about abuse and our families. Holy Crap the things we have to do to get a child is crazy!! Anyways Evan and I are perfect Angel's (insert lightening bolt here)

When we met with her at our house she told us a year, well she has no realized a year is not good enough for us and has now said 6 months... She said if we don't have a child in 6 months we will have to look again at our home study... I know it could take longer but come on 6 months is a great time!! It will be April and then a month later we start camping woohhooooo. Praying this works out!! I want to take my children to the lake this summer!

We closed the lake the other day and its very sad, no more camping this year, we have enjoyed it a lot. But 7 months and we can go camping again! It is very cold here right now and I see snow up on the mountain and Evan said it was snowing at the mine today brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!

Well we leave in less then a week and I am so excited!!

Anyways!!

Thats all for now!

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On our side

Have you ever thought about who is On your side?

Through this journey I know who is on our side, and there are times we will say what we want in a child and people's mouth drop and say WHY why would you want that. Sometimes I think man just having a child to love is all I want, I don't care if they are "Normal" as long as I can love them and can meet their needs thats all I want. You really know who is on your side.

Being an Early Child Educator I have been around kids with all area of needs and some people get scared if the child has a need but not me, God has gifted me with this love and power to work with children and those that have needs are even better for me. And with adoption we might have missed so many goals that parents love to watch, like rolling over, walking, talking..... So that is what brings Evan and I willing to take a child that may have autism or may have cerebral palsy. But we do live in a small town away from medical so we are looking at that all.

There is an adoption board that we can look at profiles of children and well there are 2 children aged 1 and 2, we have sent in a request for more information on them. We have found out a few stuff about them and even though I know they will not be joining our family, I pray someone will be taking them and giving them all the love they need. And maybe God has plans but only time will tell.

There is another song that really has been hitting me all week and some days I will sit and sing it all day and realize that we are not alone and yes God is on our side!

God is with us through this journey and he is not leaving us and he knows our needs and wants and yes the mountains may crumble through this journey but we shall see! God will be there each and every day for us!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ejCdVRRIJ8&feature=related

On our side
Chris Tomlin

Everyone around the world

Hear the joyful sound
See the heavens open up
Hear the music coming down
Nothing's gonna separate us from the Father's love
I can't help but celebrate
'Cause we're not alone

If God is on our side
Who can be against us?
If God is on our side
We won't be afraid
Though the mountains may fall
And the sky will crumble
There ain't nothin' gonna stand in our way

Come on down to the riverside
Wash it all away
Leave behind your troubled mind
For an uncloudy day
Nothing's gonna separate us from the Father's love
I can't help but celebrate
'Cause we're not alone

Mighty to Save

So I was just putting away dishes and folding laundry when I was in thought and thinking of our new journey, and the song that popped into my head was Mighty to Save. And I know that God can move the mountain that no matter how bad the roller coaster is we will trust in God fully and he knows our heart and he knows the plan he has for us.

There are times I forget it and sit and think I want this and this... But our whole journey of fertility we have left to God, number 1 thing is always hearing when are you going to have kids and I always say when God gives us that wonderful gift. And its true, I was talking to a few friends and they do not know how I have gone 3 years without doing treatments right away or how I have waited so long but God has given me the heart to realize what I really wanted and that was adoption.

Since the song has touched me so much and if you have not heard it then I suggest looking it up, the words to the song are in bold and tonight as I sit here I thank God for giving us this journey. He has blessed us with infertility that we will be giving a child(ren) a loving and caring home. I know it sounds silly but we have taken it as is, we are greatful that there are wonderful doctors out there that would try to get us pregnant but God has had other plans and he has opened our heart to those plans.

Everyone needs compassion, people see we hurt and want to offer their advice and don't understand why we are doing what we are doing and that is adoption. People have compassion for us and say they feel we are going to get pregnant, I heard that a few times that they had been praying for us and that they knew we would get pregnant in a few months and its almost a year. Thank you for showing us compassion by praying for us, please pray for our future children and that they are safe right now and that they are being shown compassion from their foster family or from someone.

Love that's never failing, wow my heart aches for this love, I have the love from Jesus and I have a very strong love from my mother and there is a strong part of me that aches because I want to show my children the love that's never failing and that love is from our Lord Jesus but also I plan on loving our children, these children will be ours and well loved as we want them.

Let mercy fall on me, please Lord show us mercy with children. It will be a beautiful sight in our house.

Everyone needs forgivness, Lord please forgive the families of these children, please protect them and Lord I pray for them each and all.

The kindness of a saviour, hank you Lord Jesus for your gentle kindness touch and love.

The hope of nations, my hope is for a family of 3 children we are out there in this nation.

Saviour, He can move the mountains, Yes Lord Jesus you are wonderful and we have this big boulder sitting in front of us but God you can move that mountain, Infertility and no Children God you are wonderful and you moved some stones to show us the path and now we wait for the boulder to be moved. You Can Lord Jesus move the mountains!

My God is Mighty to save, Yes Lord you can save the broken hearted, you can move the mountains, you can touch our lives and you can show the way Lord, because

He is mighty to save

Forever, Author of Salvation, Lord you are the authour of Salvation, you have given these children a second chance at life Lord God

He Rose and Conqured the grave, Yes Lord you did this for us and you saved us so we can save these children.

Jesus conquered the grave, for you and me and for our family

So take me as you fine me, Yes Lord thank you for letting us be open and letting our hearts be open to a child with needs such as Autisum thank you for giving us the heart to help these children as so many people want normal children and we will be thankful with a child.

All my fears and failures, Lord I do have fears this will take forever and I am scared I will fail and be dissapointed with how long it may take and being told No after being told Yes.

Fill my life again, Yes God please fill my life again with love and joy, thank you for Evan Lord, please for our life again.

I give my life to follow, Please Lord lead the way so I may follow you

Everything I believe in, Lord I have a strong faith and I believe that this is the begining of our long waited journey Lord.

Now I Surrender, Lord I fall to my knees praying for patiences and strength through this journey.

Saviour, He can move the mountains, Yes Lord Jesus you are wonderful and we have this big boulder sitting in front of us but God you can move that mountain, Infertility and no Children God you are wonderful and you moved some stones to show us the path and now we wait for the boulder to be moved. You Can Lord Jesus move the mountains!

My God is Mighty to save, Yes Lord you can save the broken hearted, you can move the mountains, you can touch our lives and you can show the way Lord, because

He is mighty to save

Forever, Author of Salvation, Lord you are the authour of Salvation, you have given these children a second chance at life Lord God

He Rose and Conqured the grave, Yes Lord you did this for us and you saved us so we can save these children.

Jesus conquered the grave, for you and me and for our family

Shine your light and let the whole world see, Lord let the whole world see that we are going to be parents

We're singing for the glory of the risen King.... Jesus... You are the King of all kings and we could not be doing this without your love. Thank you Jesus!!

Here is a You tube link- Its an amazing song-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwWYfwuTeaw

Thank you for walking with us in this journey and please keep praying for us, and pray for our children, pray they are safe right now and in loving hands. We can not wait to get them and show them the Love they may have never seen, our love and the love of Jesus.