Christmas is around the corner

Well today I am having a really rough day, prayers are needed. I look under the tree and see all these gifts that belong to my spoiled rotten much loved niece and think how much the gift I really want is not under there and how tough it is this year to have Christmas.

I thought I would be okay with this but this week 3 people have said they are pregnant, once again here we go again how many like time it was 20 in 2 weeks... How many the week before Christmas? Don't get me wrong I am happy but hurting deep inside. One person is someone who is really close to me and man does it make the wound sting harder.

I keep talking to my friend about this all and I cry when I tell her and its tough because I know my time will come but seriously HOW LONG??

Today I was thinking, all I wanted when I was 19 and married was to live in Elkford and have Evan have a great job at the mine, it took 5 years for it to happen and when it did it wasnt quick it was June Resume, August 1st interview, September 2nd interview in person and October hired.. So here I sit and think All I want now is to have a family, children of my own, children I can love and cuddle and have call me mom. Its tough this March it has been 4 years of waiting and trying, I hope I am a mom before the 4 year mark.

Please keep us in your prayers and pray that 2010 brings us wonderful news quickly and that I dont have to wait anymore its tough.. I have learn patients and well its time.

God please help me make it through hopefully my last ever alone Christmas of not being a mother, this is tough God and I need your help.

Denise

Merry Christmas

Have a great holidays everyone!!

We are having Christmas at my brothers for the morning, breakfasts and gifts and then coming here for dinner! On Christmas Eve we will go to my parents and then to church.

Hopefully this will be the last Christmas we are single and that next year we have a house full of kids.

Have a joyful Christmas!!!

Home Study

Our Home Study is done!! I sent off the corrections tonight and it is done done done!!

Please pray that 2010 will bring us great joy right away!!

Also please pray for my family, My Grandma has just passed away.

We went to Calgary this weekend to get my mom from the airport and went shopping it was good times.

So this is where we stand please keep praying i know there are children out there for us but I am like anyone else I want them now!!

All I want for Christmas

Well this year I did not want to ask for anything, All I really truly want for Christmas is children. It breaks my heart to know that its December 1st and I probably won't get kids till 2010, I hope 2010 is a wonderful year for us.

Anyways I am sorry I am such a downer, I am just really tired of having people ask me if we know anything or if our home study is done or when we will get kids. These are all questions I have NO answers for. I do know a family is bringing home their baby girl this week and it does make me sad to look at pictures, but it also makes me happy that SOON that will be us!

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You (You= Children)