Wait

A friend sent me this poem and I want to share

Wait
by Russell Kelfer
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.
"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.
"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.
"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.
"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."

BELIEVE, PUSH, FAITH

While attending church I love the worship and believe God is speaking to me through worship, I am a worship girl and get more out of the music then I do the sermons. Always have and always will I believe.

While this past weekend at church, God was speaking to me through the songs.

The Enemy has been defeated! The Enemy in my case is my social worker, she says she only wants us to have 2 children and she only wants this and that... But we know That GOD is our final Judge! And I can not wait till the Enemy is defeated in our case!!

Living Breath of Life- Well We are going to have a new living breath of life one day!

Turn my mourning into dancing- I mourn not being able to have children but I know that once those children are in my arms I will be dancing!

To be still and know- Your plan Lord! Right now I may mourn but I also need to be still and know and have Faith!

You're the light into the darkness- This is a very dark time in our lives its going on a roller coaster through a tunnel constantly, never know when we will finish going through the tunnel.

You're the hope to the hopeless- Yes there are the days we feel we are hopeless, the future is hopeless. When WHEN WHEN!

You're the Peace to the restless- I am very restless and God is giving me peace and calmness

Greater things have yet to come!! AMEN!!! This is so true!!


So yes these songs are for what our life will be with Jesus but its also for what is happening right now in our lives too.

So all that kept coming to me is PUSH (Pray until Something Happens)

We have faith and we will keep praying and asking God for our CHILDREN!!! CHILDREN CHILDREN CHILDREN!!! Bless us Lord Jesus!!

Slacker

That who I am

I have been slacking updating the blog, but why? Well because there is no news. Sometimes I get upset thinking, still no children, still no word. But then I remember I have great friends who are getting us through this, friends who care and ask how things are even though they know sometimes the pain is tough, they want us to know they are here for us and we are so thankful.

Its a journey we can not do alone, this past week we were able to share with some people the journey we are facing and oh my were they excited that this is happening and they want to be involved and we are thankful that we have those type of people who care truly about us!

I do have a post for later about how God worked in our my hear today from church

But right now I am going to focus on our Nation and hope to celebrate today with another Gold Medal and a new Olympic Record!! GO CANADA GO!!

Not much

Well there isn't much to update

Our social worker is busy doing stuff and looking for kids on the side, well thats what she tells me and thats what I am praying she is doing.

I am having a rough time right now with this, I am ready to fall on my face its a tough journey. There are times I feel like I want kids right now, and then there are times I am okay with the wait.

What I am not okay is going out daily and hearing any news on the adoption? When will you hear?

I don't know when I will hear, it sucks so much! When your pregnant you get 9 months, we can take up to like 3 years! Ack I will not think of that, I have faith it will all happen this year! I have faith it will happen soon. God is in Control! No social worker GOD is! And I pray it happens soon so I don't fall flat on my face, I have waited along time.

Did you know we own a 3 bedroom place and I have a hard time going into the 2 bedrooms because really they should be filled with children. Some nights I go and sit on the bed in one of the rooms or I sit on the hope chest looking out the window praying for children for this room. I think this maybe a nightly thing.

Well thats all for now, not much of an update.

Olympic Torch comes to Elkford!

What an awesome experience it was to be apart of it! We got up at 5am and went to see the torch for 6am. Then we had a pancake breakfast and to our surprise the runners all brought up the torch for us to all get pictures with and hold it! Thanks so much to the runners for letting us be apart of this special day!

My heart breaks

Tonight I sit here and think of all those children in Haiti who maybe be orphans now. It breaks my heart, I have always wanted to do adoption from another country but the money it costs is crazy. So I have been thinking depending on time it takes maybe in a couple of years we will adopt from another country and we could fund raise.

I think about the kids in Canada too, the ones who maybe have special needs and no one wants them but guess what I do!! I want to give them a home.

Last week we lost Evan's Oma and I remember seeing this phrase on his aunts fb and it really made me to clue in, it is true.

Happy moments, praise God. Difficult moments, seek God. Quiet moments, worship God. Painful moments, trust God. Every moment, thank God.

Tomorrow!!

Wooohhhoooooo our social worker comes back to work tomorrow wooooohhhhoooooo I am so excited and cant wait!!! I have been looking forward to this day forever!! I am not going to bug her until like Wednesday or Thursday I hope she calls me before then!!

So I am excited! and hope to get some stuff going!!