The Climb

First of all not much news, talked to my social worker and she is trying to work on two different children right now a 5 year old and a 2 year old. Please pray, God's hands are in this and its all up to him.

God is working in our lives right now and I know he has plans. Some days I feel like I know what it is then it changes. My Heart is very guarded so I will not be let down.

So many babies lately oh man all I want to do is cry and want to have my own brand new baby, I want to go through the joys of being pregnant, puking, worrying and just feeling that baby. I want to do the ultrasounds (Yes okay I have had like 10, but come on I want to know and see a baby inside me) I bet I know of 12 babies born in the past month, lots of girls. I know lots of people pregnant and yes I am happy for them but deep inside I cry.

Have you heard a song from Miley Cyrus called the climb? Well its how I feel... Songs really touch me and this journey. Between doing adoption and wondering if we should seek Fertility.

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa